Amrix
demonizedLive Again
the way you look at me
makes me tremble
i can’t keep still
turn your eyes away
is it love i feel?
i can’t keep control
there’s fire in you
its burning me up
my hands are alight
my heart’s on fire
stay away from me
i’m about to melt
when you say my name
you just don’t realise
what you do to me
my life just ends
your voice it penetrates
my thoughts and intent
i remember your touch
tingles through my soul
i can’t live anymore
the pain is too much
one moment of bliss
what more could i ask
when you are close
i can’t escape
trapped in my cage
you set me free
to reach you once more
and live again
Her Colour
one day I saw a butterfly
fluttering in the slight breeze
patterned with a light and colourful die
she danced through the waving trees
i looked on far to see her direction
and lost sight for a moment of time
turning my head away in distraction
again i saw the mystical lines
she glided above the flowing brook
the water glistened the sparkling sun
but then she changed her coloured look
to reflect the water’s determination
she swanned once more passing the stream
headlong she dashed for a nearby barn
and disappeared into the creviced beam
from a pearly blue to the darkest tan
i awaited for her, once more, to fly
quietly looking with an intense gaze
just a steady calm for a very long time
nothing more than the afternoon haze
as the evening began to pass away
she came out of her hiding place again
but this time her wings were set ablaze
mimicking the sky’s soft orange taint
and then she vanished into the distance
fading away into an invisible glow
leaving me locked in a deep and dark trance
left pondering this extraordinary show
Demons Return
Death and despair consumes my soul.
The fires of hell call me home.
To live or to die, a choice to make,
Saving me from myself, a saving grace?
The anguish of darkness shadows me,
Where I am bound in chains, not free.
With no where to follow, or be led.
The burden of evil is not shed.
Cries from my heart to know the truth.
Somewhere there must be something new
To escape the madness of this veil,
And to pass the nightmare of this tale
My demons return with fullness of force,
To ride my soul like a broken horse,
To torment my mind and thoughts within;
Never to let rest, or the freedom from sin.
The spirit of guilt and spirit of lust
Continue to devour the only trust.
The raging battle of bad versus good
and the unending fight for my livelihood.
A Night’s Condition
evening passes by
and my mind wanders
straying in and out
of what will be
and what did not
touching heaven
that short time
then returning again
to our shared
celebration of pain
desperately seeking
a glimmer of hope
and looking for
a ray of light
beaming once more
as nighttime arrives
my heart jumps
with blistered beats
just one more touch
to reconcile me
knowing the truth
of life’s confusion
and our dilemma
that this path
is no illusion
but your love
persists through time
echoing the song
of your heart’s cry
from a distant land
feeling this heat
oh the joy
sensing your desire
to live once more
freed from mire
an eternity apart
but soon together
in usual formation
life’s true mystery
unfolds in season
About You
your face glows with a mysterious light
radiant and bright as a twinkle in the darkest night
i see you from afar, not just in my dreams
or memories to remember as it may seem
your heart beats, revering like a loud gong
who can escape the sense of your longing
to touch your hand as simple as it may
yet these feelings i cannot weigh
your very eyes pierce my deepest soul
yearning to know the true meaning they hold
was that a lost emotion that i felt
a gentle look, causing my soul to melt
your soft voice echoing a beauty to behold
where your love is unseen, untouched and unknown
these waves flood my spirit, penetrating my heart
oh commune once more, to cross the forbidden in part
your smile beckons me as the morning rose
i can continue no further, black as a crow
the life i see in you is the desperate hope
that one day you will free me from my painful yoke
Help Me
i turned away knowingly,
rebelling against what i believe and trust
innumerable desires and temptations aroused,
in pursuit of sin, pleasure and lusts
the sick stench of evil
surrounds my inner desire to follow
the deeply buried cry of my conscience
to rescue me from this sorrow
the echos of selfish passion
reverb around my thoughts and mind
to please and satisfy myself
is all that my soul seems to find
help me oh God, help me,
no more can i bare to sustain
the pressure boiling against my soul
as i am totally lost in this pain
searching my soul looking for hope
piercing my thoughts, a fiery light
shines from buried within,
pulling the cords of this defiant kite
Never Met
i ponder that day when you whispered my name
in that moment of time an eternity came
when i gasped for another breath of air
helpless and weak at the thought of your stare
these untouched emotions and passions aroused
by the shining glow that sits on your crown
and the sweet sound of the song from your heart
which pierced my soul like a flame filled dart
lost in the depths of your diamond eyes
where at least one brave soldier has lost his life
to know the true meaning of the forgotten tale
where love is the only measure that cannot fail
was it fate that bound our paths that day
when you asked me my name, that i should say
you could have asked me for anything, even my love
and now i await anxiously for the jesters bluff
that maybe all of this is just a dream
a lost thought imagined through sunlit beams
could it be so that i was never even there
and that i never met my princess fair?
The Same Face
in my life’s turmoil
where is god?
i can’t understand why
so many bad things happen
i don’t understand anything
i’m lost
in so much pain
misery is my bed
doubt is my morning food
filled with the despair and loneliness
trust in god they say
which one are you talking about
what god?
i don’t know of any…
only pain, misery and suffering,
yes all of it
its all good
just live your life you stupid fool
foolish person that i am
following my heart
and do what i want
then what?
what comes after that, anything?
i don’t know
none of us do
we are just running around
hoping for something
and living for nothing
born into pain
leave this world the same
tears of hope
burning on my face
tormenting me
to make a difference
and change the fate of life
nothing becomes something
despair turns itself around
and life is not forgotten
ha, the pointless dream
continues its path
the slightest change
smashed to a thousand pieces
and the death of hope
maybe the death of god?
resumes its course
even though
nothing will remain
claim to know the course of change
and the same face
appears again to claim the day
