in my life’s turmoil
where is god?
i can’t understand why
so many bad things happen
i don’t understand anything
i’m lost
in so much pain
misery is my bed
doubt is my morning food
filled with the despair and loneliness

trust in god they say
which one are you talking about
what god?
i don’t know of any…
only pain, misery and suffering,
yes all of it
its all good
just live your life you stupid fool
foolish person that i am
following my heart

and do what i want
then what?
what comes after that, anything?
i don’t know
none of us do
we are just running around
hoping for something
and living for nothing
born into pain
leave this world the same

tears of hope
burning on my face
tormenting me
to make a difference
and change the fate of life
nothing becomes something
despair turns itself around
and life is not forgotten
ha, the pointless dream
continues its path

the slightest change
smashed to a thousand pieces
and the death of hope
maybe the death of god?
resumes its course
even though
nothing will remain
claim to know the course of change
and the same face
appears again to claim the day